Adenda and aftershocks

I'm actually talking to the Herb while I type this, so excuse me if it comes out weird.
( Wallowing in personal drama, if you don't wanna read this, you're excused )

Another set of drama, which I've been doing so well avoiding, has to do with two of my exes who are now dating. I woke up today and realized that I'm actually rather happy for the two of them. I'm not jealous of either of them. In fact, I'm rather ecstatic that they found each other, since I couldn't be what either of them needed. This is such a change for me, since it used to be if a friend of mine got involved with someone, I'd go through a black phase of envy and jealousness over the entire thing. Never anything like trying to sabatoge the fledgling relationship, but it used to hurt. Well hell, long time readers of this forum saw bits and pieces of it here and there, although I don't think I ever bothered to post the horrid jealousy poem I wrote back on May 31st.
But I think maybe it's time I got over it. I used to be happy for people who managed to find each other, even when they were people I loved and cared about. Sooner or later, I will met someone, maybe not tomorrow, but soon. Sitting around turning green isn't making life easy for anyone, including myself.

Borrowed from invisible_sun

Ok, I needed a break after that last post, so I kind of borrowed this as an antidote.

what generation gap do you "belong" to?
Hmm, I was theoretically born at the end of the baby bust, so that would make me Gen X, but even then, most of them got on with life before I escaped from High School, so I guess that just makes me "Lost".

do you have "sensitive" skin?
Depends. Under the right stimuli, my skin takes on a life of its own.

how often do you curse?
Enough that I could probably go through a bar of soap a day.

what is your religion?
Going towards Judaism, but until I make it through the Bet Din I guess I'm still Pagan.

do you believe in fate?
Yeah, on occasion. Usually when large amounts of coincidence crop up, or something rather major happens.

what about karma?
Oh yeah. Side effect of Paganism.

what do you think people think of you?
Probably that I'm an ugly pervert, or that I'm a sexy pervert, or a funny pervert. Or just a pervert.

do u even care?
Not really, unless they're someone I care about.

do u give change to performers on the street?
Depends. If it's an actual performance, yes, but if it's just a hustler, no.

do u give change to the fake santa claus in front grocery markets?
Hell no. I'd much rather give Holiday offerings to places where I know it's going to be used in the way I want it to be used.

is alcohol bad?
Mad Dog 20/20, yes. Everything else, no.

what about smoking?
Don't mind if I do.

do u care about second hand (smoking)?
Only if I'm eating.

do you find people sucking on water bottles sexual?
Not usually, since my first impulse is to correct their technique.

if you can pick any profession not based on your knowledge or financial status what would you want to be?
teacher or novelist.

do you find vampires fascinating?
um, is this a trick question? Um...

do you play with stocks?
Only the wood ones when my current obsession has been bad.

do u own a cell phone?
What's the point? I rather like being hard to get ahold of.

do u follow trends or stray from the norm?
I haven't been normal in years...

are you materialistic?
Not really. ost of what I want is ephemeral.

are you superficial?
Only about myself.

if money were not an issue would you buy excessively expensive things?
Oh yeah. That cruise to Europe would be mine.

do you believe that you get what you pay for?
Yeah.

do you believe in marriages?
I've made my comments on this already. I know people who are happy being amarried, I am not among them.

how many children do you want?
I like being an uncle. The kids go home eventually.

do you think the full moon makes people go crazy?
*howls*

do you like insects?
Unless they're parasitic, I could care less.

what is eternal?
my internal monologue

what is ephemeral?
life

if you were to never wake up after today would you say you lived a fulfilling life?
Yeah probably. I think I've gotten to a point where I can live with myself.